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Washington Pt. 2

The in laws house will be on the market Wednesday at the latest. I guess it hit me hard last night because I could not stop crying. I just kept thinking about all of the horrible what if's to the situation. Like said in a previous post - my PawPaw isn't in the best of health right now. What would happen if worse came to worst? Would I be able to make it back home? Plane tickets are expensive if you have to buy them day of, what if we don't have the money at the time to drop on a plane ticket? These questions don't even apply to just PawPaw. They apply to everyone down here.

Going back a little bit, we don't have to move with them, but that has been the plan. When and if they move, Josh won't have any family members down here. But if I move, I won't have any family members up North. So is Josh the one that has to go without family or friends or am I the one? How is it decided who gets the better part of the situation?

It's something we both have to talk about and figure out the pros and the cons. I would love to get out of Texas. I love that Texans are so adamant about their state, as they should be! Texas is pretty great (then again, I don't know any different), but it's the only place I've ever known and I would love to spread my wings and explore. I hope that if we do decide to move, that I would be able to enjoy the move and not be depressed the whole time. I guess only time will tell.

Washington.

The following was written March 30, 2015 and was just not yet posted.

We have officially decided that we are moving to Washington if given the chance.
I guess when I say "Washington", I really mean the Washington/Oregon area. Right around where they meet each other.
That's a pretty big deal to me. I have never been out of Texas! Not even to travel! And now I'm probably going to be moving to Washington. It's going to be crazy.

I already had to hold back my tears just thinking about the move. I recently found out that my PawPaw (dad's dad) has kidney cancer. He's going into surgery soon, but unfortunately, it doesn't seem like he's got that long to live. I went to live with my Nanny (mom's mom) when her health went down hill and it just really sucked having to see her suffer day after day. Even though I don't go see my PawPaw everyday, I know that he's suffering and it's really heartbreaking. I don't really know what to expect with expecting death. I knew his health wasn't what it use to be, but I really didn't expect it to be THIS bad. I expected death with my Nanny, but in the best way I could possibly make this sound, she was so ready for it. I kind of figured that PawPaw was just getting old and couldn't be out in the garage anymore or be out in the yard anymore. So what do I expect? I have my Nana (dad's mom) that is going to turn to her family for support and what happens when/if I'm not here when it happens?

Family wise - I'm going to miss my twin the most. She's the one in my family that I have the largest bond with. Of course though! We we wombmates. (Haha, get it?) I mean, we never even lived apart until we were 22. Even when my husband and I got a place together, she came with us. It's not like she was planning on staying where she is now. She's wanting to move down south a little bit, but at least that was still in Texas.

I'm not really worried too much about what others think about the move. I'm more worried about what I will think about the move after it's too late to change courses. I haven't really been in the happiest of mental stability and I'm just really hoping that I won't get too depressed and can actually enjoy the move and seeing things that I have never seen before. It's actually not even a for sure thing that we are going to move. It depends on some things. My in laws are thinking about putting their house on the market and that's when we debated on going with them wherever they go. They know that they are for sure getting out of Texas, but I don't believe that they have decided on what state they will be moving to. Although there really isn't anything holding Josh and I back from going to Washington alone, it will be better if we were all to go together. Only time will tell us what happens.

March Madness

and we're not talking about the basketball tournament!

March itself has been one hell of a month filled with stress and headaches, but most of all, love!

Raleigh is sure eager to walk! Her personality is coming out A LOT lately and she's just the sweetest little bundle of joy. I do everything I can for her and make sure that she has everything she needs. I also feel like my pregnancy emotions are never going to go away. It's either that, or there is just something else that is making me constantly emotional. Even with the smallest things. It's also with the really big things that could make almost anyone cry. You know, like the military videos of the Moms, Dads, Brothers, Sisters, or some other family member coming home and surprising someone?! Yeah, I can not watch those types of videos without having all my feels coming out!

This past week of March has been COMPLETE HELL. I don't think anything went right, but that's okay! We take our problems as we get them. Some of the things could have been a lot worse and I'm thankful that they weren't. A few things could be a lot better, but unfortunately, that's not my call.

We're taking a different route in finding a place. It was vaguely said in a previous post and I'll have a post here soon explaining more of what's going on. Long story short, we're not getting a house where we are right now. The mortgage dude put all of the eggs in the basket before they hatched and it really just screwed us over, but in the end, it worked out better for us.

This post was a little bit all over the place. That's the madness of March. I really hope that there is better things in store for us! Send some positive vibes and some positive thoughts if you will. ~

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If finding a house where we live now wasn't stressful enough, we may be moving halfway across the United States. It really all depends on if my in laws move back home. It's like a real life "Love It Or List It" with a little bit of change. (Josh's) Dad wants to "list it" but Mom also doesn't exactly "love it." She's mainly just tired of moving. I couldn't even imagine what moving is like. I've only moved once and it was about thirty minutes away and I moved back into my childhood home about a year after I first moved out.

It's something that we're really going to have to talk about and decipher the pros and the cons. If Josh's parents move back home, he'll be here without family or anyone he grew up with. He's already without people he grew up with, but at least he has his parents here. If we move with them then it will be me that is without family or any of my friends. It would be nice to have a complete change, but there is a handful of people I really wouldn't want to leave behind.

I'm not too sure how we would be able to find jobs and a house without being there. Josh will probably be able to get a job with his brother, but that still leaves finding a place to stay. We might just have to rent until we were able to find a home.

I mean, it's not even a for sure thing that they would be moving at all. We've been contemplating going to Oregon/Washington before we even found out that they were going to put their house on the market. Kinda jokingly saying it with serious thoughts about it.

What do you all think we should do? Have you ever moved super far away from family and friends and everyone that you've known?




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