April's Update

This house went onto the market last week. I go in between being super excited and being super nervous about it selling. Right now, I'm currently super excited for it to sell so I can get the heck out of here. The plan is to go up North for a year and then decided if that's where we really want to be. Josh is telling me that I'm going to fall in love with being up North and I really feel like that is how it's going to go. I may never come back to Texas to live.

My Pawpaw is out of the hospital, out of the rehab, and back at home. I don't think I've ever seen my Nana as sad as she was while we were waiting on the results of his surgery. They haven't spent a night of their 50 plus years of marriage away from each other, but they had no choice on the night of his surgery. I've hardly ever seen any emotion out of my Pawpaw except for when he met my then-boyfriend-now-husband. Except that was positive emotion and the emotions he was pouring out before/after surgery was definitely the opposite. He didn't know if he was going to make it. Hell, neither did any of us. It was probably the hardest thing I had to go through recently. I have probably cried more in the past couple of weeks than I have in the past couple of years combined. However I just couldn't cry around my daughter. I didn't want her to see me weak. It would have broken my heart even more.

My grandparents were one of the biggest reasons holding me back here in Texas. I called my Nana this past week and we talked about what she and Pawpaw thought about us moving. She gave us 100% of their support. That lifted the biggest weight off of my shoulders. She even said that they would come and visit us when we get settled. It's no doubt that they will. They are definitely big time travelers. They been to every state except for Hawaii.

I know my sister isn't really on the train with me moving. I don't really know what to do about that. It's going to break my heart when and if we actually move. It's not even set in stone that we are, but I guess I'm just giving everyone a heads up in case we do move. I'm taking her little niece away. :(

Everything happens for a reason. Only time will tell if it's happening for the right reason.